Firstly, I'd like to apologize to all my friends for seemingly dropping off the face of the Earth.

I had to reinstall Windows on my computer and I lost my dad's internet network key, so I have to settle with my default internet network, which SUCKS ASS. Also, there's been school stuff, I've been really busy, yadda yadda. We all have.

The main reason I haven't been on for a while is that I've just been too depressed to go online. Not too long ago my family had to put down our dog, Fifi. I've had this dog for 13 years, since I was 5, so this really hurt. What especially hurt was the way that she had to go. We noticed that for the past several months Fifi had been consuming A LOT of water and she seemed to have some incontinence issues, but other than that she was okay. We knew she was going slightly blind and deaf, but she was an overall healthy and happy little doggie. Well, it all started on a Friday. She got really sick where she would just throw up all the time. She would drink tons of water and hardly eat, but the poor thing couldn't keep anything down. This went on until the next day, where she was so weak she could hardly walk or stand. We tried to rehydrate her by feeding her crushed ice cubes, but that didn't really work. By Sunday she was so bad that she couldn't even prop herself up to vomit, so she just threw up all over herself, but at this point she was just bringing up water. We didn't think she would last the day, so we took her to the vet to see what they could do to help us. We suspected that her kidneys were failing. The doctor said he didn't know for sure unless he ran some tests, but he was positive that that was what was wrong with her. She also had an arhythmatic heartbeat, so her heart was failing, too. The vet recommended to put her down right then and there. So we did. It took her three days to go from a happy and healhty dog to a sick, pathetic looking fluffy bag of bones. She looked unrecognizable at the end. It was fucking horrifying. I feel like shit because I know that she suffered during her last days. Even though we tried our best to make her as comfortable as we could, she was in pain. So I've been feeling really fucked up inside ever since.

I know this doesn't really effect any of you guys, but I just felt like sharing. Talking about it helps. So yeah. Thanks for reading this and bearing with me.